SAMUDRA part 1- a lesson in heart :)

Assalamualaikum wbt n hi there! 

Alhamdulillah, it has been a week after the Samudra ended. Honestly, i learned a lot during the last few days prior to Samudra and on those days themselves. 

The thing that really touches my heart is... SELFISH. 

So here some stories to be shared. 

I still remember, in a netball practice, this underdog, super netball-loser ayush wanted to take the attacker position. But there was a girl who was partnering with me also wished to be the attacker. 

No discussion.

No agreement.

Nothing. 

But when someone asked, 

"The attackers, put your hands up!"

Immediately she raised her hand up to the air. I was absolutely clueless and speechless. I thought that at least, we should discuss on that first. I know that this sounded quite funny and childish, but i still believe, we SHOULD at least discuss first! 

My heart whispered as, "How selfish this person is!"

Later on, we kept on practicing. And after a few moment, I was still blurred with my 'temporary-defend' position. I seriously do not know and forget already on how to play this netball and suddenly now I was shifted to the defending position, it really burdened me! i became so down that day...but Alhamdulillah, I realised that Allah was testing me, He tested me on my patience and tolerance. 

But somehow, i partially failed because i got a bit angry in the beginning... sob3

I said to myself that "Perhaps previously, you have always been selfish, so now, Allah wanted you to feel what other had felt because of your selfishness."

or maybe...

"You have to be patient, ayush... She has the right to say that. She might want to practice intensively.. while you? You should be tolerate and give chances to others, dear."

Self-persuasion? Yes. Definitely. 

Subhanallah, after the short practice, that girl asked me whether i want to replace her position or not.. At least, Allah had opened her heart, rite? :) 

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Me and the Arctic gurls were on the track. We were discussing and planning on some strategies to be used for our relay track events. Suddenly, I saw my dearest friend named Z was gasping for air and waving me. 

"Ayush, ayush, do you have inhaler?"

"No, I do not have."

Z was gasping. Turning around and asked the other girl nearby. 

"X, do you have inhaler?"

"I do, but it is my room."

Gasping. Gasping. Struggling for air. 

I was there looking at her. Thinking whether should I go there and help. But the SELFISHNESS stroke and started to kill me! 

I ignored her and i continued on planning some strategies in my mind. Oh dear! How could you do that? 

I could just run to the hostel and take X's inhaler in a split second. 

But why on earth that i turned on such a super selfish person????????

Yes. Selfishness kills. T.T 

Oh Allah, please Allah, eliminate this selfishness away from me. And eliminate all the bad attitudes and feelings away from us.  Insert all the good attitudes inside us and purify our hearts...amin....